I do not like to lose. This is something that has always been true of me, it probably is a result of playing insanely intense cribbage and other games with my father and grandmother, both of whom usually beat me (especially my dad), while growing up.
Another trait of mine that I am well aware of is a lack of fear of telling people my honest opinion, without much regard to their feelings, and this is usually stated bluntly. I probably developed this during my time at Linfield, thanks Nick Dills and Mike Jenson.
I think these traits can be both good and bad, and there probably isn't too much I can do about them, they help define who I am.
Tonight, I happened to be in a position where my opinion mattered and what I said was pretty much what was going to happen. This involved a situation of winning or losing, and I took decisive action to ensure the victory. This may have come at the cost of some hurt feelings, probably not the kind of thing you'd go home and cry about, but something that could make make the person who my decision effected hold it against me for all time. For this I am sorry, but I'd probably make the same choice again.
On one hand, I like that I can be assertive. Alternatively, I do not enjoy making people feel bad. I can't decide what path I should take in general. Perhaps the future will provide me with more insight.